of becoming a shade

you’ve found all you need
and I’m scared to interrupt
your content state of being
with my delusional demands of
occasional hi and let’s
as I already see you barely
manage to spread me
somewhere in between
the slices of your was and am

the thinner I am in your thoughts
the more my everything hurts so once more
I become a paper plane and throw myself
against another wall of laters and sorry-nos
and while in my mind I sting you with a bore
you’re too good to scrunch me up and throw
far away and you know it would be just easier

because now again I just float
between everyone’s last resort

while the oh-so-caring strings of control
kindly remind me it’s all me and my fault



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